**WARNING** This post may contain excessively girly information!
So, if you read my previous post, you saw I was looking into practitioners of Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM). I had my first visit yesterday, with a doctor who's office I pass on my way home. It was a quaint, quiet office. Very clean and smelling of incense. But not a strong, patchouli type smell or what my husband would call a "hippy" smell. There was only one elderly gentleman in the waiting room and he was waiting for his wife.
I didn't have to wait long before the doctor took me back to her office. She was extremely nice and very thorough. I can't even begin to tell you all the questions she asked! Some of which you probably don't even want to know, believe me! After going through a very detailed interview about various aspects of my health history, she took my blook pressure. I'm used to the cuffs they put around your arms, but she had a much smaller cuff that goes around the wrist. It was electronic and reminded me of a heart rate monitor. I didn't like her machine AT ALL! My blood pressure has always been on the low side of normal, but not here. She took readings on both wrists and both gave extremely high numbers, like 167/110. HOLY COW! That's not like me at all. She assured me that it happens to many people, including a priest she sees.
After that she looked at my tongue and took pulse rates from several places on both my wrists. In TCM, the tongue can tell a lot about someone. I was familiar with this because of the books I'm reading. TCM is all about balancing your body's internal climate and the five organ systems which are: kidney, liver, heart, spleen, and blood. You don't want your body to run too hot or too cold. You don't want you chi to be stagnant, deficient, or excessive.
My dr. could tell by my tongue and the respnses I gave during the interview, that my body tends to run warm. She explained that when she took my pulse, she was actually taking the pulse of each of the different systems. I, most definitely, have a deficiency in my kidney system. This is the system that is responsible for reproduction and life. But, she then told me that all of my pulses are slow for being as young as I am. Surprise! Even in the practice of TCM, my body is out of whack! We need to strengthen all of my systems, most importantly the kidney, in order to make my body strong enough to carry an egg. My body is not ready to be pregnant because it's not strong enough. I also need to get my blood flowing better. When I start menstruation, it lasts for literally like a day and a half, maybe two at best. I know this is not normal. And I've had a gut feeling all along that I probably won't get pregnant until that gets fixed. This is my dr's goal!
We then went into the acupuncture room. I've had acupuncture before, so I wasn't too worried about it. She stuck me w/ about 14-18 needles. The one that I felt the most was on the bottom, side of my right ankle. When she stuck that one, I actually said. "Oh!". She told me that spot's a kidney spot. The ones that I feel most are responses to the systems that need the most help. Interesting! She placed a heat lamp over my abdomen, turned on relaxing music, turned off the lights, and left me to relax. Which of course, I could not do. I was too busy thinking of all the different things she was telling me and whether my responses to her questions were sufficient enough. Before I knew it, she was back in the room. Luckily, it was only to stimulate the needles and leave me there to relax some more. This time, I actually nodded off.
Before I left, she mixed up a bottle of herbs for me. She created a powder with 8 different Chinese herbs. I have to mix this with 4 oz of hot water and drink it three times a day before meals. It looks like crap! It doesn't taste awful, but it's certainly not pleasant! It has the same taste as an herbal suppliment pill, except much, much stronger! It helps to plug my nose, but as soon as I let go and breathe, I still get the smell and feel the taste in my mouth. The herbs are supposed to help me bleed better, shed my endometrium lining, and then rebuild it. She directed me to eat hot (temp, not necessarily spicy) foods while I'm on my period to also help blood flow. After that, I need to eat lots of fuits, but no refrigerated. I also need to stay away from fatty meats.
I go back to see her in about a week and a half. We need to figure out when exactly I ovulate, which is not an easy thing for me since my body is so kooky. Once we get that figured out, I'll have to come in for more acupuncture and different herbs. I feel hopeful talking to her. It also helps that I've been reading about it and know someone who's gone through the same process with successful results. If anything, I'm sure all the acupuncture and herbs will renew my body and give me a sense of energy, health and wellbeing. How can I lose??
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Thursday, February 5, 2009
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Trying Again
Many people know my struggles w/ fertility. We've been trying to conceive for two years now, to no avail. I was seeing a fertility specialist, but didn't get anywhere. He was not the kindest of men, nor did he share much information with me. The staff seemed incompetent and I was scared just sitting in one of their offices because of the area and the clientele. Apparently, the accepted any and all forms of insurance. Another issues, my insurance doesn't cover anything under the "fertility/infertility" umbrella, so I was paying completely out of pocket. The whole process became an impersonal, scheduled chore. So, last March when we decided to start looking for a house, I decided to stop seeing the specialist.
When you're trying to get pregnant, everyone in the world has opinions and suggestions. I can't tell you how many times I've heard, "It will happen when it's meant to be", "As soon as you stop trying and forget about it, you'll get pregnant", "Don't think about it". It really gets quite frustrating. Not to mention that it seems to also be the time when all of your friends seem to get knocked up accidentally. It's not that you're not happy for them, because you really truly are ecstatic, it's that you're haunted w/ thoughts like "why not me? what's wrong with me?"
Since we were purchasing our first house and I was starting a new job I did have a glimmer in my mind. Everyone says you'll get pregnant when you stop worrying about it. Well, now I have two new things to worry about: House, Work. How inconvenient would it be if I got pregnant when I started a new job and needed extra money to make a new mortgage payment?? How inconvenient and yet PERFECT!!!! This would serve as the perfect distraction and thus I'd get pregnant, like magic!
NOT! This is indeed not how it worked out.
Back in the fall, a former coworker of mine informed me that her daughter had finally got pregnant. She'd been trying with no luck as well. She had even gone through several rounds of IVF. My friend gave me the titles of two books her daughter recommended, both of which are about how traditional Chinese medicine helps with infertility. They get into the internal weather of your body and how to create balance through the systems using diet, herbs, acupuncture, and exercise. I read most of one of the books. It seemed very interesting, until I got to the foods suggested. They were a bit extreme and out there for me. Many of which I wouldn't even know where to find. So, I put it down.
I ran into this former coworker again yesterday. Her daughter is due at the first of April and also mentioned that I should call her. My friend said that her daughter swore by the woman she saw. During her first visit, the Dr. placed a finger on her forhead and one on her abdomen. She then asked if the girl was in the water a lot because she has a cold womb. Turns out that she is always in the water, has been on the swim team and is an avid scuba diver. She received acupuncture and herbs from the dr. and continued to see her for 3 months. She had the girl rubbing castor oil on her tummy to help warm it up and she was drinking a tonic nightly. When my friend's daughter went in during the third month, the dr. told her that was the month she'd get pregnant. Sure enough she did.
This had intrigued me yet again. I explained to my friend that I had seen an acupuncturist once, but he wanted me to come a few times a week for several months. At $70 a visit, that was way too much for me to afford. But, when I heard her daughter only went every other week, I decided to look into it again. Last night I spent quite a bit of time online researching local acupuncturists and practioners of traditional chinese medicine. I found one in South Tampa who seemed promising. There was an article in the paper about her and also a story on one of the news stations. I also found another which is located much closer, near work, and slightly less money. Both doctors emailed me back within twelve hours of my email to them. I think I'm going to try the doctor who's closer first because it's more convenient and slightly less money. I've asked to book an appt. for next week. I'll see how I feel after my initial consultation and acupuncture treatment. If I get a good read from her, I'll continue to see her. Her website does say that she specializes in women's health, which makes me feel good. If it all doesn't work out, I'll visit the other practitioner in S. Tampa.
Here's to crossing our fingers and hoping all goes well. I've also decided to start making healthier choices. Not necessarily to aid in conception, but because I'd really like to slim down my figure like it used to be. I've cut out soda's and most of my snacks. Meals this week have consisted of fruit and hard boiled egg whites for breakfast w/ my morning coffee, mixed nuts for snack, yogurt and lunch meat for lunch, maybe another piece of fruit for snack, and then whatever Randy makes for dinner (it's always something healthy). We've been taking the dogs on long walks and I even dusted off the treadmill. Today we'll go geocaching which helps get in many miles of walking while having a blast at the same time. I know I can do this, I used to be a personal trainer afterall. It's just a matter of being disciplined enough to stick with it.
When you're trying to get pregnant, everyone in the world has opinions and suggestions. I can't tell you how many times I've heard, "It will happen when it's meant to be", "As soon as you stop trying and forget about it, you'll get pregnant", "Don't think about it". It really gets quite frustrating. Not to mention that it seems to also be the time when all of your friends seem to get knocked up accidentally. It's not that you're not happy for them, because you really truly are ecstatic, it's that you're haunted w/ thoughts like "why not me? what's wrong with me?"
Since we were purchasing our first house and I was starting a new job I did have a glimmer in my mind. Everyone says you'll get pregnant when you stop worrying about it. Well, now I have two new things to worry about: House, Work. How inconvenient would it be if I got pregnant when I started a new job and needed extra money to make a new mortgage payment?? How inconvenient and yet PERFECT!!!! This would serve as the perfect distraction and thus I'd get pregnant, like magic!
NOT! This is indeed not how it worked out.
Back in the fall, a former coworker of mine informed me that her daughter had finally got pregnant. She'd been trying with no luck as well. She had even gone through several rounds of IVF. My friend gave me the titles of two books her daughter recommended, both of which are about how traditional Chinese medicine helps with infertility. They get into the internal weather of your body and how to create balance through the systems using diet, herbs, acupuncture, and exercise. I read most of one of the books. It seemed very interesting, until I got to the foods suggested. They were a bit extreme and out there for me. Many of which I wouldn't even know where to find. So, I put it down.
I ran into this former coworker again yesterday. Her daughter is due at the first of April and also mentioned that I should call her. My friend said that her daughter swore by the woman she saw. During her first visit, the Dr. placed a finger on her forhead and one on her abdomen. She then asked if the girl was in the water a lot because she has a cold womb. Turns out that she is always in the water, has been on the swim team and is an avid scuba diver. She received acupuncture and herbs from the dr. and continued to see her for 3 months. She had the girl rubbing castor oil on her tummy to help warm it up and she was drinking a tonic nightly. When my friend's daughter went in during the third month, the dr. told her that was the month she'd get pregnant. Sure enough she did.
This had intrigued me yet again. I explained to my friend that I had seen an acupuncturist once, but he wanted me to come a few times a week for several months. At $70 a visit, that was way too much for me to afford. But, when I heard her daughter only went every other week, I decided to look into it again. Last night I spent quite a bit of time online researching local acupuncturists and practioners of traditional chinese medicine. I found one in South Tampa who seemed promising. There was an article in the paper about her and also a story on one of the news stations. I also found another which is located much closer, near work, and slightly less money. Both doctors emailed me back within twelve hours of my email to them. I think I'm going to try the doctor who's closer first because it's more convenient and slightly less money. I've asked to book an appt. for next week. I'll see how I feel after my initial consultation and acupuncture treatment. If I get a good read from her, I'll continue to see her. Her website does say that she specializes in women's health, which makes me feel good. If it all doesn't work out, I'll visit the other practitioner in S. Tampa.
Here's to crossing our fingers and hoping all goes well. I've also decided to start making healthier choices. Not necessarily to aid in conception, but because I'd really like to slim down my figure like it used to be. I've cut out soda's and most of my snacks. Meals this week have consisted of fruit and hard boiled egg whites for breakfast w/ my morning coffee, mixed nuts for snack, yogurt and lunch meat for lunch, maybe another piece of fruit for snack, and then whatever Randy makes for dinner (it's always something healthy). We've been taking the dogs on long walks and I even dusted off the treadmill. Today we'll go geocaching which helps get in many miles of walking while having a blast at the same time. I know I can do this, I used to be a personal trainer afterall. It's just a matter of being disciplined enough to stick with it.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
I have an excuse....
I know one of my goals was to blog more. But, seriously, I have an excuse!
I was having issues w/ my iBook. The battery/charging icon was alternating back and forth between the two and my monitor was flashing. Then on random occasions the whole dang thing would just shut off. We believed that maybe the power adapter cord was loose and jiggly. We would daily try finagling the cord just so, wrapping it around the laptop, nearby coasters, or whatever else we could manage to place the cord just right to make a secure connection. It was bad enough that I even ordered a new Macally power adapter from amazon. Wouldn't you know, same damn problems. I did some investigating online and concluded that it was the DC-in board, which is where the adpater plugs into the acutal laptop. There is a rather detailed, picture by picture, tutorial on repairing it yourself on ifixit.com and the part online is only $35. But, I couldn't bare try disecting my laptop. With my luck, it would surely result in disaster. I ended up taking it to the Genius Bar at our local Apple store. They had to order the part, which came two days later and they had my laptop back to me two days after that. I was quite impressed. AThe whole repair was $100, most of that labor, which I expected because I read how much of a pain it is to take apart these laptops. So, that was last week.....
Then I was hit with the ICK! Last Friday I could tell I was coming down with something. I was exhausted, achey, and extremely congested. Didn't stop me from seeing Hotel for Dogs (funny movie, btw, cute!) and visiting the horse track w/ coworkers again (but only for a short time). I got worse as the weekend and the new week went on. Yesterday my ears started to feel funny. When I tilted my head to the right, I could feel pressure moving in my ear, in the same manner as water in a bottle would shift when tilted. At that point I decided to make an appointment for the doctor. This morning, I woke up feeling somewhat normal and considered cancelling my appt. Tara, though, being the concerened BFF that she is, insisted that I keep my appointment. Luckily I did. I feel like crap because I for good reason~ sinus infection as well as double ear infections! I am now under orders to take an antibiotic, mucinex, nasal spray, and use the neti pot!!! Could it get any worse?? Well, yeah, I guess it could have had I not gone in when I did.
So, that's what's going on. My knitting has gone on the wayside since Christmas. I'm still stuck on Clue 3 (or is it 4) or my Mystic Ice. Not because it's hard. Just because its taking longer and longer to finish each row! I'm also going to frog my Mystic Earth. It's been hibernating and I already have a rectangular stole in a similar color green. I needed something a little simpler and quicker to work on, so last night I cast on a drop stitch scarf using old Lime and Violet sock yarn from back when they only had an etsy.com shop.
This weekend we're supposed to attend another Pits Pound the Pavement dog walk. It's to be held outside the airforce base to support our troops. I'll have to see how I'm feeling by then though. Right now, I don't even want to think about it.
On that note, I'm off to do some mindless knitting.
I was having issues w/ my iBook. The battery/charging icon was alternating back and forth between the two and my monitor was flashing. Then on random occasions the whole dang thing would just shut off. We believed that maybe the power adapter cord was loose and jiggly. We would daily try finagling the cord just so, wrapping it around the laptop, nearby coasters, or whatever else we could manage to place the cord just right to make a secure connection. It was bad enough that I even ordered a new Macally power adapter from amazon. Wouldn't you know, same damn problems. I did some investigating online and concluded that it was the DC-in board, which is where the adpater plugs into the acutal laptop. There is a rather detailed, picture by picture, tutorial on repairing it yourself on ifixit.com and the part online is only $35. But, I couldn't bare try disecting my laptop. With my luck, it would surely result in disaster. I ended up taking it to the Genius Bar at our local Apple store. They had to order the part, which came two days later and they had my laptop back to me two days after that. I was quite impressed. AThe whole repair was $100, most of that labor, which I expected because I read how much of a pain it is to take apart these laptops. So, that was last week.....
Then I was hit with the ICK! Last Friday I could tell I was coming down with something. I was exhausted, achey, and extremely congested. Didn't stop me from seeing Hotel for Dogs (funny movie, btw, cute!) and visiting the horse track w/ coworkers again (but only for a short time). I got worse as the weekend and the new week went on. Yesterday my ears started to feel funny. When I tilted my head to the right, I could feel pressure moving in my ear, in the same manner as water in a bottle would shift when tilted. At that point I decided to make an appointment for the doctor. This morning, I woke up feeling somewhat normal and considered cancelling my appt. Tara, though, being the concerened BFF that she is, insisted that I keep my appointment. Luckily I did. I feel like crap because I for good reason~ sinus infection as well as double ear infections! I am now under orders to take an antibiotic, mucinex, nasal spray, and use the neti pot!!! Could it get any worse?? Well, yeah, I guess it could have had I not gone in when I did.
So, that's what's going on. My knitting has gone on the wayside since Christmas. I'm still stuck on Clue 3 (or is it 4) or my Mystic Ice. Not because it's hard. Just because its taking longer and longer to finish each row! I'm also going to frog my Mystic Earth. It's been hibernating and I already have a rectangular stole in a similar color green. I needed something a little simpler and quicker to work on, so last night I cast on a drop stitch scarf using old Lime and Violet sock yarn from back when they only had an etsy.com shop.
This weekend we're supposed to attend another Pits Pound the Pavement dog walk. It's to be held outside the airforce base to support our troops. I'll have to see how I'm feeling by then though. Right now, I don't even want to think about it.
On that note, I'm off to do some mindless knitting.
Monday, June 30, 2008
House Update
We met with the mortgage guy last Monday. Thursday, we found out he's no longer working for the company~ WTF?!?!?! Okay, so that just totally threw me! Just when I was starting to feel comfortable and more at ease with everything~ boom!
Prior to this, we had all of our inspections done. These all turned out great. We have no major issues at all and several of the people who came out told us that we got a helluva deal on our house considering the amount of land and the neighborhood it's in.
Thankfully, people at the mortgage company were on top of things. Turns out the girl in charge is actually an old friend from high school (i hadn't seen her since then). Today we met with the new guy assigned to our file. I immediately told him, "You're job today is to make sure I'm feeling comfortable about all of this by the time I leave." And sure enough, he did.
If everything goes according to plan, we'll be closing 3 weeks from today! **crosses fingers**
Prior to this, we had all of our inspections done. These all turned out great. We have no major issues at all and several of the people who came out told us that we got a helluva deal on our house considering the amount of land and the neighborhood it's in.
Thankfully, people at the mortgage company were on top of things. Turns out the girl in charge is actually an old friend from high school (i hadn't seen her since then). Today we met with the new guy assigned to our file. I immediately told him, "You're job today is to make sure I'm feeling comfortable about all of this by the time I leave." And sure enough, he did.
If everything goes according to plan, we'll be closing 3 weeks from today! **crosses fingers**
Monday, September 17, 2007
Photos
Here are photos of stuffs.... ant in his new, $5, jack skellington shirt, which goes great with his finally finished socks! yup, that's the yarn he dyed~ perhaps he should go in business with me!
also, a photo of my newly dyed red hair. i tend to do this when the seasons change. its pretty deep. i was planning on going with something a little more brown, but i just can't help going with those crazy hair colors that tap into the old punk rock girl inside
also, a photo of my newly dyed red hair. i tend to do this when the seasons change. its pretty deep. i was planning on going with something a little more brown, but i just can't help going with those crazy hair colors that tap into the old punk rock girl inside
Sunday, September 9, 2007
A Few Quick Updates......
First~ on the needles......
Still working on MS 3, though I'm SOOOO close to the end. Just another 30 rows or so. I've also still got Ant's socks and Tara's baby blanket on the needles. All mostly completed, but none yet finished. I've come to discover that I'm not so good at multi-project knitting. I do better when I've only got one or two things going.
On the wheel.....
gorgeous BFL in Morning Glories dyed by Funky Carolina for the Sweet Sheet Fiber Club. Between that and the new wheel, spinning is oh-so-addictive! i'm luvin' the Lendrum. Its spins like buttah!
Girly news.....
Went to my doc for my annual. She's referring me out to a reproductive endocrinologist to see what's going on. My spotting is either because I just can't get a period, or my body is trying to have a period, but the Clomid has thinned the uterine lining and all I'm getting is spotting now. I have my appointment scheduled for Thursday, however Humana sucks and I need a referral. I called my primary care early Friday morning and left a message on their referral line, and called again several hours later. The recording says that they'd return calls by the end of the business day~ I however received no such call. I will try again tomorrow, where I won't be quite as pleasant that no one called me back! Hopefully all will be taken care of before Thursday.
Work news...
Tara's doc told her she's lost too much weight and is to stressed to continue working. So, she's done a week earlier than she had planned. Her sub isn't so bad, but boy can she talk! I know it's only for 6-8 weeks, but I miss her terribly! It's just not the same without her.
And while I like the kids in my class this year, they're really sweet and kind... boy do they run their mouths nonstop! I've never had a class talk as much as they do!!! I'm really at my wits end. I've got to figure something out!!
Alrighty... off to knit some more!
Hopefully pics soon. My batteries are charging
Still working on MS 3, though I'm SOOOO close to the end. Just another 30 rows or so. I've also still got Ant's socks and Tara's baby blanket on the needles. All mostly completed, but none yet finished. I've come to discover that I'm not so good at multi-project knitting. I do better when I've only got one or two things going.
On the wheel.....
gorgeous BFL in Morning Glories dyed by Funky Carolina for the Sweet Sheet Fiber Club. Between that and the new wheel, spinning is oh-so-addictive! i'm luvin' the Lendrum. Its spins like buttah!
Girly news.....
Went to my doc for my annual. She's referring me out to a reproductive endocrinologist to see what's going on. My spotting is either because I just can't get a period, or my body is trying to have a period, but the Clomid has thinned the uterine lining and all I'm getting is spotting now. I have my appointment scheduled for Thursday, however Humana sucks and I need a referral. I called my primary care early Friday morning and left a message on their referral line, and called again several hours later. The recording says that they'd return calls by the end of the business day~ I however received no such call. I will try again tomorrow, where I won't be quite as pleasant that no one called me back! Hopefully all will be taken care of before Thursday.
Work news...
Tara's doc told her she's lost too much weight and is to stressed to continue working. So, she's done a week earlier than she had planned. Her sub isn't so bad, but boy can she talk! I know it's only for 6-8 weeks, but I miss her terribly! It's just not the same without her.
And while I like the kids in my class this year, they're really sweet and kind... boy do they run their mouths nonstop! I've never had a class talk as much as they do!!! I'm really at my wits end. I've got to figure something out!!
Alrighty... off to knit some more!
Hopefully pics soon. My batteries are charging
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Happy Anniversary...
to US! YAY!! one year ago today, randy and i took the plunge. i can't believe how quickly time has passed. we're keeping it simple tonight with dinner and a delicious meal at Mitchells which is fine seafood~ YUM! our orlando trip to see Blue Man Group as well as Universal/Islands of Adventure was our anniversary gift to each other.
to celebrate, i figured i'd post some of our wedding photos
to celebrate, i figured i'd post some of our wedding photos
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Buff to Fluff (back to buff??)
i've been wondering lately, "what the heck happened?" when randy and i started dating, what seems like eons ago, i really took an initiative to start working out seriously. i dropped forty pounds and went from a size 15 down to a 0-2. i managed to stay in that range for a year or so. working out was a central part of my life. i even got my certification in personal training and did that on the side, in addition to teaching.
perhaps, when i quite training, is when my decline began. they gym i worked at, and had a membership to, screwed us over. i got slapped with several months charges after i stopped working for them and they also raised rates without informing us ahead of time. with all of that i said, screw it! i left and went to a smaller gym that was closer to work.
smaller, much smaller! and not as neat, rather dusty and dingy. randy stopped going to the gym altogether and my friend who signed up with me stopped going as well. so i was left all alone at the not so wonderful gym. wedding time last year, i was about a 4-6. no biggie what so ever.
that will be a year ago on July 15th. so, here we are, again a year later, and i am now wearing a sz 9! i have gone up at least 15 pounds! screw the freshman 15, i've got the newlywed 15. and toward the end of the school year with all of the moving and packing and what not, i never made it to they gym. haven't been to the gym in a couple months in fact. and now that its summer time, i don't want to drive to the other side of town to work out at a gym i'm not happy with.
enter, LA Fitness. just opened up the first of the month, maybe 2 miles from the house (probably not even that far). i went there yesterday to check it out~ FA-BU-LOUS! it's the same price as i'm paying now (my old gym started cheap, like $20, how the hell am i paying so much?!) but i get a whole hell of a lot more! they have tons of equipment, machines, cardio, a great free weight area, basketball, racketball, pool, sauna. i walked in and immediately felt inspired. this could be what i need to energize my life. get back into the shape i once was and will hopefully be again.
we have a ton of co-workers (many of which don't need to be there) going to a certain doctor for weight loss. he has them on a couple different amphetamines (i know at least one of them was in phen-phen, you know, that stuff that was banned!), they get their B12 shots, and eat, ready for this?, 500 calories a day. sure they drop weight like you wouldn't believe. but they also look terrribly gaunt, have awful tempers, and no meat on their bodies what so ever! it's gross, and it makes me angry. and meanwhile, it's all the rage at work~ "Oh look how great, so and so looks!" they get praise and glory. What really pisses me off is that I lost all my weight a few years ago, they RIGHT way! and my body was kick ass and toned. yet, i didn't get half the attention these girls are getting. not that i want the attention, that's not my point. the point is i actually got off my ass, worked out, and ate correctly. i didn't need to subject my body to harmful drugs and starve myself.
arggggggggggggg...... i really didn't mean for this to turn into a rant. but i guess it did.
on that note, i think i'll go make breakfast.
perhaps, when i quite training, is when my decline began. they gym i worked at, and had a membership to, screwed us over. i got slapped with several months charges after i stopped working for them and they also raised rates without informing us ahead of time. with all of that i said, screw it! i left and went to a smaller gym that was closer to work.
smaller, much smaller! and not as neat, rather dusty and dingy. randy stopped going to the gym altogether and my friend who signed up with me stopped going as well. so i was left all alone at the not so wonderful gym. wedding time last year, i was about a 4-6. no biggie what so ever.
that will be a year ago on July 15th. so, here we are, again a year later, and i am now wearing a sz 9! i have gone up at least 15 pounds! screw the freshman 15, i've got the newlywed 15. and toward the end of the school year with all of the moving and packing and what not, i never made it to they gym. haven't been to the gym in a couple months in fact. and now that its summer time, i don't want to drive to the other side of town to work out at a gym i'm not happy with.
enter, LA Fitness. just opened up the first of the month, maybe 2 miles from the house (probably not even that far). i went there yesterday to check it out~ FA-BU-LOUS! it's the same price as i'm paying now (my old gym started cheap, like $20, how the hell am i paying so much?!) but i get a whole hell of a lot more! they have tons of equipment, machines, cardio, a great free weight area, basketball, racketball, pool, sauna. i walked in and immediately felt inspired. this could be what i need to energize my life. get back into the shape i once was and will hopefully be again.
we have a ton of co-workers (many of which don't need to be there) going to a certain doctor for weight loss. he has them on a couple different amphetamines (i know at least one of them was in phen-phen, you know, that stuff that was banned!), they get their B12 shots, and eat, ready for this?, 500 calories a day. sure they drop weight like you wouldn't believe. but they also look terrribly gaunt, have awful tempers, and no meat on their bodies what so ever! it's gross, and it makes me angry. and meanwhile, it's all the rage at work~ "Oh look how great, so and so looks!" they get praise and glory. What really pisses me off is that I lost all my weight a few years ago, they RIGHT way! and my body was kick ass and toned. yet, i didn't get half the attention these girls are getting. not that i want the attention, that's not my point. the point is i actually got off my ass, worked out, and ate correctly. i didn't need to subject my body to harmful drugs and starve myself.
arggggggggggggg...... i really didn't mean for this to turn into a rant. but i guess it did.
on that note, i think i'll go make breakfast.
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